Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Day 9
(Updated throughout the Day)

Last night, I went to have drinks with some girlfriends, after our children had gone to bed. Obviously, alcohol isn't raw...but I hardly ever spend girl time like that (ie. without children), so I wanted to go, despite the temptation. The girls had martinis, Long Island Iced teas, pina coladas, etc. And the appetizers...oh, the appetizers!! The appetizers looked amazing. I thought about compromising with Bruschetta (it would be at least partially raw, right?), but said to myself (in my head): I want to lose weight more than I want to eat Bruschetta! And the bread basket...yum. But when the waitress came, I was able to ask for nothing more than a cup of hot tea, with honey. She looked at me, surprised. I guess people sitting in the bar area don't usually ask for hot tea. :)
When it was all said and done, the social aspect was what I wanted, and it was just as (well, almost) enjoyable as if I had been eating and drinking with them. i did feel a little like the outcast, as they drank their martinis and giggled, but it wasn't as hard as I would have thought, mostly because they all knew why I wasn't partaking, and were/are very supportive. That makes a big difference, doesn't it? Having support, especially when you are feeling weak? At one point, Charlotte, across the table, caught me looking longingly at the bread basket, and sweetly pulled it from the middle of the table to her side. Good girlfriends like that are invaluable.
I am going to be writing more about this food topic in my Bringing the Beach Home Series over at Happy at Home.

Starting Weight: 159

Current Weight: 158.5

Today's Exercise:

Today I ate:
-1/3 banana
-1/4 c. sunflower seeds (not raw)
-Handful of Cheez its
-Belgian Butter Cookies
-1/2 piece of roasted veggie lasagne
-green beans
-gratin potatoes
-3 chocolate covered espresso beans
-small handful of candy

Wow. Not only did I completely fall of the bandwagon today, it also ran over me...and backed up, and ran over me again.
I am getting tired of coming on here and confessing. I could sit and write about how this all happened...all the mistakes I made that resulting in my eating spiraling out of control, but it is beginning to feel a little "been there, done that" on here...
Today was day 9 of my raw food challenge and I have yet to have a day that I ate completely raw. Well, the day is done now, I can't take it back, only learn from it. Onward and Upward!


Melissa said...

I would think that being a little uncomfortable in a situation like that was much easier to handle than the guilt you would have experienced afterwards if you had partaken with them. Good for you!!!

carter0531 said...

Wow, sounds like it took a lot of will power to pass up what the others were enjoying. I'm not sure I could have done that.